Hey mum, I'm safe.
I came home the other day to realize that I haven't checked my famjam chat for a day and a half. My mum had left me 10 messages and called a family friend to make sure I was okay. Sorry, just been super busy. But I guess that's what I've been for the last 9-ish months since I've last written. Only until recently when catching up with my sister's blog (she's currently teaching in Japan) did I come to realize that I haven't put much loving into my own. I used to love writing: applied ethics papers, film papers... my journal... What happened?
So, hi. Hello. From Brooklyn.
Brooklyn had been on my mind for a while. My journey here began specifically in January when I applied to Huge's UX School - something I wanted to do for a few years. Reoccurring self-doubt discouraged me from applying previously, however, my visit to Brooklyn last October defeated my self-doubt. I loved DUMBO. I wanted to be in this space... learning and living life as a 20-something year old.
Fast forward through the application process, myself and 10 other individuals were chosen. I cannot express how grateful I am for this opportunity. To be selected out of hundreds, learning at one of my favourite agencies, living in New York, feeding and thriving off such a talented group of people... honestly something I never thought would happen to me. Weekly, I felt like I was only scraping at the edges. User experience is not easy, but it's something that after rounds and rounds (and more rounds) of iteration proves extremely rewarding.
Of course, with any new position, the feeling of incompetency is bound to happen. The people I've been surrounded by everyday are undeniably some of the smartest and most forward thinking individuals I have ever met. But even the quickest thinker and best speaker feel incompetent sometimes. It is this that keeps me going. We will always have each other for that extra push to build our weaknesses, slowly but surely, into strengths. I know these new friends of mine will keep encouraging me to better myself as a designer past UX School.
I realized that in the last three years, I've been gradually leaving home for longer periods of time. Each trip has brought me so much insight about myself - whether it's my limits, my capabilities, or my interests. Staying in Brooklyn, commuting to DUMBO day in and day out has brought me to realize that hey, I do miss Toronto. Toronto is home... Coming back from London two years ago, I was so convinced that London was the city I wanted to be in. But now, who knows where anyone will be in a year.
Welp. School is officially over. The fastest-paced 10 weeks of my life. I made some amazing friends, have an abundance of crazy memories, and am equipped and ready for what's in for me next.